Tuesday, December 6, 2005

Check out this event: Bobbi Billard's Birthday Party! You're Invited! :)

Check out this event: Bobbi Billard's Birthday Party! You're Invited! :)
Current mood: excited
Category: Parties and Nightlife

Hosted By: Bobbi Billard
When: Friday Dec 09, 2005 at 9:30 PM
Where: Prey
643 N. La Cienega
Hollywood, CA 90069
US
Description:
Bobbi Billard's Birthday Party! Party with ME & my HOT model girlfriends!

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Sunday, December 4, 2005

Add Me!! Add Me!! Add Me!!

Way back in the day, before I edited my profile to hide my MySpace comments section from all of you, I used to get like 50,000 annoying Add Me! Add Me! comments each and every day. I've always had a lot of friends and some of you were smart enough to realize that by posting to my page, you'd get a bunch of adds. Needless to say, it got out of hand. It got to the point where I had to block some of you, because I was getting sick and tired of having to go thru and delete people for spamming the fuck out of my page. So I decided to change my profile so that nobody but me could see my comments anymore. And magically... all of that ASCI madness ended. However, I decided that I miss those days just a teeny tiny bit. So here it is... this blog is dedicated to all of you friend whores out there.

I've decided to finally do something for you guys aside from hitting delete and block. This is guaranteed to get you a whole bunch of new friends by simply posting a comment that says "Add Me" or however else you'd like to creatively beg for more friends. All you have to do is play by these simple rules which are as follows:

1. First come... First serve! DO NOT get all crafty and try to skip the line or your post is as good as garbage!

2.
Please post only one time per person! Yes! You can accomplish your goal of getting more friends in only one easy post! What a friggin concept!

3.
No HTML! I don't allow it so don't even bother. If your comment looks like a bunch of gibberish code, it will get deleted. And that's a promise!

4. DO NOT write ADD ME over and over again 50,000 times and take up the whole fucking page unless you want to get deleted and/or blocked! Come on now!

5. Make sure you add me first if you haven't already. My profile is located here: http://www.myspace.com/bobbibillard

6. If you are too lazy to read the rules and because of that break one or more, then this will teach you... I'll delete your post and you just wasted your time! How do you like that?

So have fun guys! And Happy MySpace Friend Whoring! And make sure that once you post your comment that you scroll back thru and add all of these people that are commenting too because they need new friends!

I promise to promote this blog very often by posting bulletins to all 300,000 of my closest myspace buddies asking them to check all of you out. By tomorrow, with the amount of promotion that I will do, this should make the MySpace's Most Popular Blogs list here. As you can see, my last post was in the top 3 with very little PR work on my part. Now don't go saying that I never did anything for you!

XoXoX,
Bobbi Billard
www.BobbiBillard.com
http://groups.myspace.com/bobbibillardVIP

Saturday, December 3, 2005

Don't be selling crazy... I'm all stocked up!

Hi everyone! Wow! It's been so crazy lately! Where do I begin? This is going to be a long one. I'm going to recap this week for you...

I've been packing all of my stuff up. I'm getting my house ready to be sold. Loridawn was down on Wednesday and then she came over again today to help out with all of the rest of the stuff that needs to be done. My house is starting to look empty now. I should get used to it! When I buy the new house and finally move in, it's going to look even more empty.

I haven't been able to get much sleep lately. I think the crazy lady next door must have called the cops again to harrass me because she thinks that I'm a porn star. That's a long story that I don't feel like getting into again but in short, part of the reason that I want to move is because a lady bought the house next door to me and she turned out to be the neighbor from hell! I've lived here for ten years and never had a problem until she moved in. Ever since she came to be a resident here, she's repeatedly called the cops on me for no reason whatsoever. One evening in particular, I was at home playing video games while tending to my dog that had just gotten attacked by another dog. I had the volume at a normal level... of course I wouldn't want the sounds of gunfire from Grand Theft Auto blasting away when my dog is in a whole lot of pain with drains sticking thru his skin and staples up his belly. She called in a noise complaint and continues to waste tax payer dollars on a regular basis. Another evening, my god daughter was in bed sleeping with the door opened and she had phoned in another noise complaint. Yeah! We were talking so loud that my god daughter slept thru the whole entire thing! I'm dripping with sarcasm people! And all of this drama because she said she doesn't like what I do for a living. I'd never even seen her before but apparently she knew all about me already in the short two months that she had lived here. She told me that she would keep calling the cops until I'm friggin' out of here! And that's a direct quote from the horse's mouth. God! I can't wait to move!

I was in bed asleep and got woken up to someone banging on the door at around 2:30 am on Wednesday night / Thursday morning. I guess I must snore so loud that I desperately needed to get a visit from the authorities. I didn't answer and they left about 10 minutes later. It wasn't easy for me to go back to sleep that night. I tossed and turned to no avail.

Then on Friday at 1 am, I was sleeping and I received a phone call. I didn't pick up the first time because I think I woke up too late to get to the phone in time. Either that or I answered and nobody said anything. I can't remember now. Anyway, I went back to sleep and the same person called back again... someone from the 602 area code which is in Arizona. I had no clue who it was but I was anxious to know who was calling me so urgently at 1 am, so I picked up the phone. I said hello several times and no one said anything back. I waited a bit and finally I could hear something... I heard Marilyn Monroe singing the infamous "Happy Birthday Mr. President" song to me. My birthday's not until the 12th but whatever... so I'm listening and then they started playing that DuckJob Sound Wav that I have in my members area. I was like, "What the fuck! Who is this?" Then they started playing some other cartoon thing that I didn't recognize and could barely hear so I can't remember what it said now. Then the next thing I heard shocked the hell out of me. It sounded like a computerized voice, like a cross between the Speak & Spell dude or the guy from the movie Scream calling me. The voice said something about being at my place now and that they were coming to get me. Then the computerized voice said, "Your phone lines will be cut. You won't be able to call the cops! You can run but you can't hide!" followed by a "You're dispicable!" from Daffy Duck. I hung up the phone and got my gun out and waited. I kept checking the phone to see if my lines were indeed cut like the caller had said. Needless to say, I didn't get any sleep that night. And the fucked up thing is I know who did it! The friggin idiot had called me and his number showed up on my caller ID. I had been gone the whole day and there were a bunch of calls from this same person. I think he was trying to reach me all day with his urgent psycho message. I called back the number and said, "Hey asshole! You just woke me up and threatened my life. Not smart! I will call the cops and you better not call me ever again!" Click!

The weird thing is that when I saw the number from Arizona, I started thinking about the people that I knew from that state. I don't know very many. My first instinct was who it turned out to be. Don't mess with me... I'm a smart cookie! I was able to obtain his full name and address by simply dialing 602-555-1212. I had decided to call because I thought I had recognized his voice off of the message and I wanted to see if I was indeed correct. Plus, I wanted to know if I was in any immediate danger. If this guy was calling me from his home phone in Arizona, then I didn't have as much to worry about... because he was far away. If he was calling me from a cell phone, then he could have been right outside my door for all I knew.

So I know exactly who this guy is without a doubt... He's a fan. A long time ago, I've heard of this guy's escapades. Back when I was on Glamour Cams, I guess he had had a problem with a few of the girls. They actually banned this guy from attending any of the Glamour Cams shows for a while. I received a long email about this person and it warned us to be careful of him.

Apparently, he worked for American Express and was using his job there to obtain information about all of the girls on the network thru their credit reports and also a site called US Search. I guess the girls were able to get him fired from his job because he was using his position there to look up personal information about people which might be illegal and is definitely not a practice that is sanctioned by the people in charge over at AMEX. I heard that he was talking shit about certain girls because a lot of girls lie about their age and marital status for business reasons. I also heard thru the grapevine that he'd given me props about being one of the few who was forthright about all of my information. I heard that one or both of the girls that he was into was/were pretending to be single while they were really married or had a live in boyfriend or something, and one or both of them had lied to him about her/their real age(s). I was told that he would mention the information that he had about the particular girl in the chatrooms when the girls weren't in the room. I also heard that one or both of those girls had taken him for a ride financially which had caused him to snap. One year, he was banned from attending Glamourcon because he had made death threats against the girl that he had once liked so much. And I also heard that he had showed up on the doorstep of one of his interests uninvited. These girls obviously felt concerned about their safety.

I don't know the whole story, but I had seen him around over the years. Yeah, there was a bit of caution in me... but I was always nice to him. He seemed harmless to me and I found him to be quite funny during all of the cam chats that we had over the years. I didn't think that I had anything to worry about because I wasn't really his type... he was into brunettes (although I had died my hair brown for a little bit, so maybe that is why he took an interest in me a little more then before). And besides, I'm not the type of girl to work someone and take them for a ride, so I thought that I was safe. But there always was that little voice in the back of my head that warned me to be cautious when speaking to him, and rightfully so, because of all that I had heard. I knew that it was not a good idea to let him in too much so I would only speak to him when spoken to. It's a good thing that I had gotten the heads up or I might have let him in more. I had always thought that he was a pretty cool guy!

Thinking back on things, there was something strange that had transpired during one of my chats with him. A long long time ago, I held my dog up to the cam and some people had joked around about being able to read my phone number off of my dog's tag. So I told the people in chat that if they really got my phone number, prove it... call me right now. My phone rang less than a minute later. It was this same guy. He was the only person that called me. To this day, I do not know if he really got my number off of my dog's tag or if he had gotten it from the information that he had obtained while he was still working for American Express. I hadn't heard from him ever again. He didn't abuse the fact that he had my number or anything (until recently). I'm wondering where he got my home phone number from because I had had my number changed a few years after he had lost his job at AMEX. And I've never given him any of my numbers. I guess he was able to find a job in which he's got access to people's information again. Fucking fantabulous!

And what's really fucked up is that this year at Glamourcon, this guy stayed by my booth practically the whole entire convention. I was too nice to say anything to him but he really ruined my business. I had long lines of people but he didn't leave and no one could get a word in edgewise. I even took a hit on a website's writeup of the convention because of this guy. You can read the article here: http://www.weightsnet.com/gallery/me/2005/Glamourcon_37/Glamourcon_37.html. They wrote, "Tried to get a picture with Bobbi Billard but she spent so much time talking to industry guys/friends that I blew her off." I guess I'm not the only person that noticed. This guy seriously cock blocked me that whole weekend! I had people complaining to me about him but I didn't have the heart to hurt his feelings and ask him to move on. Not only that, but he didn't even buy one thing from me. That's fine and all... I like to say hi and have fun and all that. I don't care if you don't buy anything from me or if you want a picture here and there. No worries! And yeah, I'm like one of the only ones that doesn't charge for taking a pic of or with me. But when you don't buy anything AND prevent me from making other sales throughout the entire duration of the convention, that's not cool! And I was still nice to this guy in spite of all of this. So where in the hell does he find the nerve to call me and wake me up in the middle of the night threatening to cut my phone lines, etc.? Hey dude! Don't be selling crazy over here! I'm about all stocked up at the moment! K?

All of this couldn't be happening at a more perfect time for me. I'm already planning on moving, so he won't have my address anymore. And from now on, I will not be receiving any of my bills at my new home address. I don't even want the credit reporting agencies to know where I am living in case this guy has a job again which enables him to have access to this infomation. Unfortunately, from now on, I am not going to ever be able to say which city I am living in. I'm going to have to change my myspace profile to say that I live in Orange County and that's as far as I am willing to elaborate after dealing with this crap. It really sucks that I have to live this way but I guess my safety has to come first. And I'm torn as to whether or not I will be able to attend appearances or conventions anymore unless I have a security guard with me. I love to meet all of you guys, but unfortunately, with the cost of a booth, and now having to pony up even more money for security in addition to what it already costs, I might not be able to afford to go. We'll see though. I don't want this asshole to spoil too much of my fun. I really don't make that much money off of attending those things anyway. I just go to have a good time... and because I want to be able to meet you guys and give you a hug in person. It would be a shame to not be able to go now. Don't the bad people always seem to ruin it for the good people in life? Fucking lame!

XoXoX,
BB
http://www.BobbiBillard.com

Tuesday, October 4, 2005

Sagittarius clutz!

My assistant messed up my house payment so I need to go into World Savings today and take care of that in a bit. I don't want to mess up my perfect credit! That would not be good! After that, I'm going to try and go in and get my four fabulous allergy shots. Fun fun fun!!

Last night was hilarious! I pulled a big time Sagittarius clutz chain of events. According to most astrologists, us centaurs have clutz issues. And I think if you guys had been watching me last night, whether or not you believe in that shit, you would have to agree.

Here's what happened. I was trying to watch my Chasing Amy DVD in my bedroom. I have run out of room for my DVD collection so I have some stacked on the side between my DVD rack and my chest of drawers / entertainment center. All of my DVDs are alphabetized. I went to look under C for Chasing Amy and pulled the DVD out. Since my DVDs in this section are not on any shelf but stacked one row on top of another instead, it caused a DVD avalanche! Damn it!!! So most of the DVDs are on the floor now but all is good... I will deal with it later. I plan on getting my old DVD rack (left over from the apartment that I had in Kentucky) out of storage. No worries.

So I go to watch my movie and I'm in bed and it's getting to the good parts and the damn DVD starts tripping out. It's playing then pausing... playing then pausing! I'm like geez! WTF! So I get up and pop the DVD out and take a look at it to see if there is something wrong with it. It looks perfect... scratch free. I think it must be a problem with my DVD player instead. I get out of bed and go into the other room to grab the Dust Off spray. I go back to my room and grab the DVD player and start blasting air thru a straw into the player. That's when the next chain of events happened. I accidentally shot the straw into my DVD player! FUCK!!! Bad trip!!! Horrible trip! I grab my DVD player and start shaking it to get the straw out of there. It won't fucking come out! Great!! Friggin lovely!! And while I was pulling the DVD player to shake it, the power went out on both my DVD player AND my cable box. There will be no TV or DVDs for me unless I do something... and I love to fall asleep with my TV on so I decide that leaving things as is is unacceptable to me. So here I am, trying to problem solve and I need to get behind my heavy entertainment center / chest of drawers to see if a plug got unplugged or what the hell caused the power to go out on both pieces of equipment. I look on both sides of my huge armoir thing to plan what the best course of action is. On one side, there are all those DVDs... some still stacked in alphabetical order. I decide that that is too much of a pain in the ass to move (as it will basically make a huge task for me to re-alphabetize all of the DVDs again) so I decide that to get to the plugs behind the armoir, I will have to go thru the other side instead. In order to do this, I will need to move this big clothes rack / shelves / laundry hamper thing instead. I moved the thing and guess what happened next... the fucking wheel broke off! All I wanted was to watch a damn DVD! Is this too much to ask for? Everything that could possibly go wrong is going wrong. I had to laugh! So here I am laughing my ass off while trying to get the wheel back on this heavy clothes rack thingie. I managed to fix it but let me just tell you, it was not an easy task doing that all by myself while praying that all the clothes and Gucci's dog bags didn't come toppling down on top of my head!

Finally, I am able to get behind the entertainment center to figure out why the fuck the power went out. I'm able to get to the power strip and I flip the switch back on. Tada! At least now I can watch TV in case I can't get that damn straw out of my DVD player. I grab the DVD player again and give it a huge shake while moving the DVD slot and the straw finally dropped out! Yesss! Now does it work? I spray it with some more compressed air... this time holding the straw in place so it doesn't do a repeat of before. I put the Chasing Amy DVD back in. It works but it's still having issues with the pausing and playing. Next step is to try another DVD and see what happens. So I watched Big Top Peewee instead and it played just fine. Should I start up a Bobbi Billard's troubleshooting service? NOT!!! LOL!

Conclusion: My Chasing Amy DVD must be fucked up. However, in spite of all of the problems, I had a blast laughing my ass off at the chain of events that happened last night. I haven't laughed that hard by myself in ages! That was pure comedy! Wish you guys could have seen it!

XoXoX,
BB
www.BobbiBillard.com

Monday, October 3, 2005

The King of Crap!

I spoke to Craig "The King of Crap" today. My assistants had called him while they were down because I had seen a pickup truck driving on the freeway ages ago. The truck said "Poop Happens" and it appeared to be some kind of poop cleanup service. Gucci uses my garage with a doggie door as his bathroom since I don't have a back yard. Even if I did, my fear of having him get eaten by a coyote would override a plan to put a doggie door going to the outside of my house.

My dog is such a spoiled brat, I swear! He refuses to go thru the doggie door, so I have to rig it to be propped open all the time... or else he will go to the bathroom on the floor near my door. He's scared of the doggie door! Classic! Anyway, back to the poop clean up service. I've always felt bad that that was one of LoriDawn's To Do List sometimes. I don't want to be the asshole who has her assistant cleaning up poop, you know? Uncool! Way uncool! So I was always looking for some sort of solution so that no one has to clean up poop but someone who doesn't mind doing that sort of thing. And that's when fate brought me to the place where I'd happen to be driving next to the poop cleanup truck one day on the 405 Freeway. Strange place for fate to bring you, but hey... it happened! I managed to write down the number while driving and put that on my new To Do List... Call poop cleanup dude. And LoriDawn or Lisa took care of that this weekend.

While I was getting my nails done, Lisa told me that they had had a conversation with this guy and he had a great personality. They told me to be waiting for a call from Craig "The King of Crap" very soon. Hilarious! They said I was going to love him so we shall see! And like they said, he finally called and we set an appointment for my first poop cleaner upper session. Yay!

What else did I do today? I beautified my myspace profile with some help from Mike. The rest of Monday is going to be a lazy day. I need a vacation from my vacation and I just don't feel like doing much today. I'd go take care of getting my first dosage of my allergy shots for this week, but I'm still recovering from the last dose on Friday. My allergies are still acting up from when they increased my dosage on Friday! I'll do that tomorrow instead.

Oh and please disregard the cam show schedules right now. I'm waiting on programming for my members area to make it easier to update my site. Right now, I have to update in two sections for every cam show that I decide to do. Frankly, it is a big pain in the ass. So for the time being, I'd appreciate it if you would just check the individual cam network's schedules for the time being until my programmer finishes up the work on my new content management system. For now, just count on the usual shows on Thursday and Saturday nights.

XoXoX,
BB
www.BobbiBillard.com

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Monday, September 19, 2005

Getting my shit together...

I had a contractor come over today to give me an estimate on a bunch of home repairs that I need. My house needs some MAJOR work. I need new paint and new carpet. Plus, on my bathroom faucet, the lever that you use to switch from running water to turning the shower on is all calcified or something. It is permanently stuck in the shower position right now... or I can switch it to bath mode if I pound the crap out of it with a big shampoo bottle or something. Then I better have some muscle over at the house to ask a favor if I want to get it back into shower mode or I am Screwed with a capital S! So Rent-A-Man time it is for me.... FOR SURE!

Then let's see here, what else is wrong with my house? Oh yeah, two holes in the ceiling from when the condensation line to my air conditioner broke and it leaked water into the ceiling over my office. That is still not fixed and it's been ages since that happened! And yeah, great on the allergies, right? To have two holes with dust from my attic exposed in the area where I spend 99.999 % of my time. Today we put some make-shift Mac Gyver style covers with masking tape over them to seal out the dust until this shit finally gets fixed.

And the last thing that is wrong with my house is the guest shower. The handle for the cold water will spin and spin and accomplish nothing. No cold showers for any guest of my house! And that's EXACTLY what most of 'em might need after spending a day with me, right? Hahaha!

Anyway, I'm doing my camshow. Mike is helping me approve my friends on MySpace right now. I had over 220 pages of adds piled up! Fuck me gently with a chainsaw! I guess that's what I get for being a busy B! Nice of him to do that for me so I could have time to write in my journal today. Oh! And I'm about to do my camshow right now with NO MAKEUP! His suggestion! Let's see what you guys think... I'm curious! And a bit scared! This is a first for me in a long long time! See you guys on cam in a few. :)

XoXoX,
BB

Friday, September 9, 2005

Model Drama!

This is going to be a long one today so please bear with me... I have a lot to get off of my triple D chest! Hehehe!

The exterminator woke me up this afternoon. It was 1 pm and I was still in bed. Bad Bobbi Baaadd!! Two nights of staying up until 4 am working on the computer have gotten me on quite the Vampire Hours! Anyway, he was nice enough to bring me two traps for my ant problem and he also offered to come in and put my face plates back on all of my light switches and electrical sockets. He told me that he had looked up my website and he liked it. Smart guy! I hadn't even mentioned that I had one I don't think. :)

A few days ago, I was at the mall and I bought a bunch of pretty smelling lotions at Bath & Body Works. I also did a little shopping at Sephora that day. I went there specifically to buy this hair treatment that I was reading about in one of the magazines I was thumbing thru while laying out by Jenn's pool. Well, I finally got to try this new stuff today and I like it a lot. Money well spent! Yay! My hair is very silky and shiny now.

After doing my beauty treatment, I worked on the computer. I've been trying to catch up with my emails. I have 122 in one email box, 250 in another, plus a bunch of posts to go thru on the forum. I just never seem to get done with my work. It's kind of frustrating. I think that with most jobs, you get the satisfaction of having completed something. With me it's never ending. And it doesn't help matters any that my assistant can't work for me anymore because she got too busy with her other jobs. I'm too busy to even be able to find a new assistant. Grrr!

Anyway, I was on the computer and I got into it with a former friend of mine over an instant messenger program. A while back, this friend of mine (who also happens to be a photographer) had put together a shoot with this model girl who was also a friend of mine. Here's a little background... According to him, he had slept with this girl once (or twice, I can't remember) and I think that he still had feelings for her even though this girl kind of blew him off afterward and she had moved on and started dating other people quite a few times since then.

So the two of them were planning their shoot and I guess she had told him that she would stay the night with him so he went out and got this really expensive room (which I know that he couldn't afford at the time) in Los Angeles because that was where the girl wanted to stay. The nice hotel room would also serve as a backdrop for his photos, so he could somewhat justify the expense. He had complained to me that this particular room was extremely overpriced, he didn't like the decor, and he felt that it looked "cheesy", but like I had said, that was what she wanted. Plus, he had hoped that maybe he and this girl might hook up again. Especially since she had said that all she wanted to drink wine and shoot. So naturally, this sounded good to him. As the shoot date approached, the girl changed the plans completely on him at the last minute when it was too late for him to cancel and get his money back. That's when I get invited into the situation. He asked me if I would come along and shoot with them. I said that I would, but looking back, I wish I hadn't.

Fast forward to the day of the shoot. I was running late. My friend was stressing because he was scared that she was going to go off on him. I felt bad for him... he's a super nice guy and I hate seeing my friends get taken advantage of. The way he was making her sound to me was that she was a real whip cracker and if she didn't get her way, there was going to be trouble. She definitely had a hold on him. Anyway, I made us late, my fault. I live an hour and a half from L.A. and traffic was bad. However, I didn't see what the big deal was. I do admit that I tend to be pretty laid back and understanding about stuff though. If I were her and I had a photographer spending $500 for a hotel room for me, spending a bunch of money to rent lights and equipment, and that was shooting pics of me for free, I wouldn't get mad at him because of something that was not entirely his fault. That's just me though. Apparently, she did and she was also talking shit about me to him (which he told me what she had said). Also, she got mad at him because he had paid to have my hair and makeup done, but he hadn't paid for hers. I guess to her, it was some kind of a contest with her or something. This wasn't my fault but he had said that she resented me for that. I'm really not sure why because it doesn't make sense to me. This was an agreement that he and I had. I'm sure she could have asked my friend to do the same for her if it really was something that was important to her. However, it seemed that it only became a problem because I was getting something she didn't. I think she forgot the fact that he had spent $500 on the room that she wanted and another couple hundred or so on lighting/photography equipment. When you total it all up, he had spent a lot of money putting this shoot together. More than the $120 or so for the cheapest possible way that I could get my hair and makeup done for a shoot but whatever. I felt bad that my friend was late because of me so I said that I didn't mind if he just dropped me off at my hair appointment so he could go straight to the room and start shooting her so she would quit her bitching. I said that he didn't have to worry about taking pics of me that day. I didn't mind. I just wanted to keep the peace. However, when my hair appointment was done, she wouldn't allow him to pick me up. She wanted me to take a cab back to the room. It appeared as if my friend was suddenly on a short leash. LOL!

Anyway, my friend kept complaining to me about this girl so I really started to feel bad for him. He was painting this chick out to be a total unappreciative bitch while he was the innocent one getting screwed over. And that made me mad because he is always the type of guy that bends over backwards to do nice things for people, so I didn't think it was fair that he was getting a bunch of shit in the process.

I get back to the hotel room after getting my hair done and they were finishing up their shoot. She wanted to go out that night so we all go out to dinner and then a nightclub after that. She brings this new guy that she had been messing around with who happened to be a promoter of the club we end up going to. My friend got his feelings hurt about that because he said it was hard for him to see her making out with other guys when he still had feelings for her because they had slept together. I think he tried to mask his feelings by drinking a little too much that evening. And she told him that he was not welcome to hang out with us and she basically said to "get lost" because she was "embarrassed to be seen with him". Of course... what she said, went!

The next day, she was pretty hungover (as she usually gets) so she didn't call or show up early. And she still had her boy toy from the night before with her so I'm sure they were laying around for a while doing whatever two people that are dating do in hotel rooms. I think we actually had to call her that morning to find out where she was at and when she was coming. She shows up much later and she goes to the mall with us because I have an appointment to get my makeup done at M.A.C. cosmetics. I got my makeup done and then we went back to the hotel room to shoot.

After the shoot, she wants to go out again. So again, we all go out. Towards the end of the evening, the guy that she was with pulls me aside. He was practically crying. I guess "his date" has been ignoring him the whole night. He's practically in tears as he tells me that she is making out with every guy in the bar and he wants me to tell her that he had gone home. So I get involved, I tell the guy not to leave and that I will fix it. I go up to the girl and at this point, I've had just about enough of everyone complaining to me about this girl. And I'm sick and tired of hearing that she is talking shit about me as if it is some sort of contest over who gets what out of this shoot. I just agreed to do it because I thought it woule be fun (what a friggin concept!!!), ya' know? I tap her on the shoulder as she is practically sitting on some guy's lap and I tell her, "Dude! What the fuck are you doing? I know you are probably drunk but pull it together! You came here with that guy and you are making out with other guys in the bar in front of him? He's practically in tears over there and he wants to leave but I stopped him." I can't remember what she said back but it's not relevant to the story anyway.

The guy she was with thanked me for getting involved and he asked me for my card so that he could invite me to some of his parties. I wasn't interested in the guy and I don't think he was picking up on me, so I gave him my card. We get back to the hotel room and she starts going off about how people aren't her "real" friends and she was bitching up a storm about how she didn't get enough shots for her website. I thought she was trying to say that I wasn't her real friend because I had given her "flavor of the month" pork-buddy my card. And I thought that she was blaming my friend and I for her not getting enough photos done when she was the one who wanted to call it a day and go out and party both nights. That was when I let her have it. I had listened to both of them bitch and complain about her the entire time and I felt bad for them that they felt powerless while this chick was walking all over both of them. I was like, "You have got to be friggin kidding me! He paid $1000 for two nights in this room that YOU wanted, he paid for all of this expensive photography equipment so that he could shoot YOU and both days YOU wanted to go out and party instead of shooting into the night like you had originally told him that you wanted to do. Then YOU were hungover this morning which cut into your shooting time and YOU wanted to go out again. It's YOUR OWN damn fault that you didn't get enough pictures!" and she came back and said, "What are you talking about? I paid for this room too!" and I can't remember everything else that was said because it was so long ago. Basically, I was up in her face defending my friend. And I still don't know what the real story is. He had conveniently failed to mention that she was chipping in any money at all to cover the expenses of the shoot... if that were even true. I backed him up as if it was a bunch of bullshit though.

After all of this and my friend had told me he was done being her friend and yada yada yada. Some time passes and all of a sudden it turns out that I'm the only person that lost a friend over this. Both guys are so pussy whipped that they were all still friends with her after all of that went down. The club promoter guy, I can understand. He barely knew me. And he was getting laid by this chick, so I get that he continued on with his relationship, even though I find it to be pretty disgusting that he'd be desperado enough to put up with a girl that he was dating making out with other guys in a bar right in front of him.

My friend, that's who I was having a hard time understanding the whole situation. The ONLY reason why I got involved is because I had to listen to both of those fools complaining about this chick over and over again and no one was friggin' doing anything about it so I got involved. And now it seems in doing so, I lost my friendship with this girl. No biggie. I don't need the drama anyway. I'm kind of shocked why he decided to be friends with her again, but then again I'm not, seeing how this person was treating him and watching him do absolutely nothing about it time after time. He's obviously a glutton for punishment. However, I would have liked my friend to get involved and it least be a man and own up to her and tell her the truth about what happened that night and why. I know that he hasn't tried to smooth things over like a REAL friend would because if he had, there is no way that this chick would want to be his friend and not mine. And regardless, if someone is your friend, you don't just throw them under the bus when they stand up for you. It's cowardly, it shows that you have no backbone, and it's just plain bullshit! He should have let her know that he was the reason why I got involved. And for the amount of time that he spent complaining about this girl to me, it doesn't seem as if he really liked her all that much anyway so I don't see why it would be any skin off his back. Although, I wouldn't be surprised if the reason that I don't get it is because he talks shit about me to this girl just like he talks shit about her to me. It would all make sense then. Other than that, I'm just not sure what the draw is. Oh... that's right! Because he porked her!

I had to end the friendship today because he never fixed things for me and he insisted that he just HAD to remain friends with this girl. He turned out to be a real snake in the grass which is pretty unfortunate. I've decided that I don't have time for people that are not TRUE friends anymore. My life is too full as it is. It's interesting that he thinks that I should overlook all of this because he thought that he "was more of a friend than anyone else ever had been or could be". That's a total joke because I've had friends that I've been friends with way longer than him. And I've already been in similar type situations with these people and guess what... they didn't roll me under the bus! What a concept, eh? Being someone's friend doesn't just mean that you do nice things for them. Don't get me wrong... that stuff is nice, but to me, friendship is a whole lot more than that. Does the word loyalty mean anything to you? It really is a shame that this person doesn't understand any of that. Oh well... life goes on! My Spring Cleaning came a little late this year but I don't have any regrets about my decision. Life is too short to share it with people that don't stick by your side when push comes to shove.

XoXoX,
BB
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Thursday, September 8, 2005

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Wednesday, September 7, 2005

Starbucks Is Crack!

I went to bed really late last night. I think it was around 4 am when I finally decided to get some sleep. And stupid me, I completely forgot that I had an appointment with the exterminator at 8 am. So at around 8:30 this morning my doorbell rang. I woke up to Gucci barking up a storm because someone was at the door. I run downstairs and answer the door in my pjs. I was so tired and groggy. I was completely out of it! As soon as I figured out that it was the exterminator at the door, I realized that I hadn't done any of the things that I was supposed to do to prepare for his visit. Fuck!! They had asked me to clear everything from out from under my sinks and take off all the faceplates off of the light switches and electrical sockets. Damn it!!! How stupid of me! I can't believe I spaced on my appointment! Luckily, the guy was cool and he didn't seem like he was pissed or anything.

After I had quickly gotten everything ready so that he could spray, he asked me if they had let me know when I made my appointment that I had to leave the house for three hours. And no, they had not told me that. I called my friend Brandi to see if I could go over there. She didn't pick up so I left a message for her. I was racking my brain as to where I could go on such short notice that would allow dogs when all that I wanted to do was crawl back im bed. Ugh!! I don't know a whole lot of people that live in my area and the friends that I have that do live around here are not typically early risers. I was just about to call Jenn when Brandi returned my call. Phew! Brandi saved the day! Thank goodness!

I stopped by Starbucks to get my morning caffeine fix. I usually order a Venti Cafe Latte but I decided to try the Pumpkin Spice Latte instead because they had a sign near the cash register. Plus it sounded good for a change. And it was pretty good, but I don't want to make a habit of drinking the sweetened coffee drinks like Mochas, etc. A lot of people don't realize how many calories those drinks actually have. I try to limit myself to one special mocha type coffee drink every one or two weeks. Everything in moderation, including moderation... right?

Anyway, I got to Brandi's and I finished my drink and I was still exhausted. I ended up falling asleep on her couch. I find it to be pretty strange that I was able to fall asleep after drinking all of that caffeine, but I was really tired! Maybe I am getting used to having coffee every day so the caffeine is not having too much of an effect on me anymore. It used to be that I had to be really careful how much coffee I drank because I was not used to having caffeine. I don't drink soda, juices, or iced tea... only water. Usually, if I drank coffee too late in the afternoon, I was guaranteed to have a sleepless night that evening. Now, I can drink a latte and go back to sleep apparently. Very strange!

One thing that I do notice is that since I have been going to Starbucks every morning, I feel very groggy in the mornings until I drink my coffee. It's hard to explain but I feel kind of out of it, like my mind is all foggy, but sure enough, it goes away just as soon as I start sipping on my latte. My kickboxing trainer used to say that Krispy Kremes is crack but I beg to differ. I think Starbucks is crack!

I wonder if what I am noticing is normal. To me it feels like I am starting to show signs of being dependent on it and I really don't like being dependent on anthing. I'm going to do some research about this because the last thing I need is a new bad habit. I've already 86ed cigarettes and alcohol. I don't smoke anymore (unless it is for the occasional photoshoot) and I have quit drinking (unless it is a special occasion). Maybe I should stop drinking coffee too. I thought I've heard that caffeine isn't that good for you anyway. I was liking it at first because I would get all cracked out on my Starbucks coffee and yap my head off in my journal, but do I really want to be dependent on coffee to be my inspiration to write in the mornings? Plus, I don't want to start getting headaches in addition to the morning funk that I have been noticing lately. Some people get headaches if they don't get their morning java jolt, right? I'd rather nip that habit in the bud right now before it starts having anymore negative effects on me. What do you guys think? Do you drink coffee? Do you feel kind of out of it until you have your first cup? Do you get a headache if you don't get your coffee fix? Do you feel as if you are dependent on it? If yes, does that trouble you?

XoXoX,
BB
www.BobbiBillard.com

Tuesday, September 6, 2005

Beach Blanket BB & Scent of a Woman

I went to the beach and laid out today. Even though I live pretty close, I rarely go to the beach, unless I am doing a shoot. And usually when I do those, it is either too cold to go in the water, or I am working and can't mess up my hair and makeup by going in the water.

It was really nice out! I was so relaxed that I could have easily fallen asleep. I caught myself though. I didn't want to wake up and be burnt to a crisp on one side because I wasn't flipping over. Been there, done that!

I'm going to try to enjoy the little bit of summer weather that we have left since much of this season I spent indoors either sick or miserable from my allergies. I plan on going to the beach again very soon. And I could always go to the pool near my house. I wonder what all the soccer moms would think of my skimpy g-string bikinis.

After the beach I came home and took a nice long shower to wash all the sand and salt water off of my skin. Then I went to the mall to pick up a few things that I needed. I had a field day at Bath & Body Works. Note to self: Don't go shopping for lotions that smell like food when you are hungry!! You'll end up wanting to buy one of everything in the entire store. *Giggle!*

XoXoX,
BB
www.BobbiBillard.com

Saturday, September 3, 2005

V.I.B. & Toothbrushers Anonymous

Good morning! I slept in again today. I've been so tired lately. I wonder if my allergies are causing that. I went out to grab a coffee (or what I like to call "Babble Juice") and came back on the computer to check what's going on with my site, my forum, etc. I got a really good question from rockhard on my forum and I was inspired to write so away I went. He wanted to know what my favorite modeling job was.

My response, "My favorite job that I ever did would have to be my Diet Dr. Pepper commercial. When I tried out for that part, I never thought I would even have a chance at getting it. The first audition I was told something completely different by my agent so I got there and wasn't prepared. He had told me they were looking for a Pamela Anderson type and he said think "V.I.P." and I was like cool... I put together an outfit that consisted of a tube top and these skintight red patent leather pants with huge platform cut off boots. The audition was way up in "The Valley" in L.A. and it was roasting hot that day..." and you can read the rest by clicking here.

I think I'm addicted to brushing my teeth. Ever since I got my teeth whitened, I've been brushing my teeth after every single meal which because of that special diet that I'm on it means that I'm brushing them like six times a day. That reminded me of the guy who did the tattoo of Winnie the Pooh and Tigger on my ankle way back in the day. If my memory serves me correctly his name was Quinn and he worked at Laguna Tattoo. Like all tattoo artists, he was tatted to the max. While he was drilling away on my skin, I was trying to distract myself from the pain by zoning out on different things. I remember looking at all of his many tattoos. I think one of them in particular was a flying toothbrush. I was like, "What's the deal with the toothbrush tattoo? What made you get that one?" and he replied, "I like to brush my teeth a lot! I'm addicted to it". I remember thinking that that was kind of strange but I guess now I'm a brushing addict as well. But don't worry guys, I promise that I won't be getting a toothbrush tattooed on me anytime soon.

I've got my camshow tonite. I've got a few things to do to get ready so I've gotta' go for now. See you soon! :)

XoXoX,
BB

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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Getting Poked & Blowing As Hard As I Can...

I just got back from my allergy appointment. I felt a bit like a human pin cushion this morning but in the end, it was all worth it. I found out some valuable information and I think I have a sense of what is going on with me now. Apparently the doctor feels as if I am one of the more allergic people that he has seen which seems pretty crazy to me. This doctor is at the top in his field. He is the author of Allergic Asthma for Dummies. His practice is very busy. He said that on a scale of one to ten, ten being most allergic, I am a ten. So for him to say that my allergies are that bad, I'm just amazed! He said that I am allergic to almost everything with my grasses being "off the charts". He also said that he does not have patients that are more allergic than I am. No wonder why I have felt like such crap for all these months. I also found out what I think set these allergies off so badly all of a sudden. Apparently this season is a heavy tree and grass season. The nurse told me that they can tell this because patients start having a reaction to their allergy shots.

I got stuck by needles containing 86 different known allergens. Most of them had a reaction. The thirteen that I didn't have a reaction to were then injected deeper into my skin. I ended up having a reaction to those as well. I don't have any food allergies but I am allergic to animals (cats, dogs, feathers, & horses), household inhalants (dust & mites), molds, weeds, trees, and grasses (Bermuda, Blue Grass, Brome, Johnson, Meadow Fescue, Oat, Orchard, & Rye).

My asthma started acting up because of all of the triggers they were putting me in contact with. They did a test of my lung function with this computerized program that you blow into and it measures how much air you can blow out. The computer screen had a picture of a birthday cake with candles on it. You are supposed to try and blow all the candles out while the nurse yells "Go! Go! Go! Go!". It was pretty funny! I got a kick out of it, I don't know why. I guess I am easily amused. Anyway, I didn't do so well so I had to stay and do a nebulizer treatment. After that they retested my lung function and I was able to blow out all but one of the birthday candles so they let me go.

I have an appointment in two weeks. In the meantime, the doctor prescribed a bunch of medications. I will now be taking Zytec (allergy antihistamine medication), Patanol (eye drops), Maxair (rescue inhaler), Rhinocort (nasal spray), and Pulmicort (daily inhaler). Plus, I will be starting my allergy shots twice a week. Exciting isn't it? LOL!

The doctor told me that allergies are hereditary. I said, "Great! If I have kids, they'll have to go through this crap?" and he said that if whoever I decide to have kids with has allergies that I'm guaranteed that my kids will have it too. He joked that from now on I should start asking guys on a first date if they have allergies. If they answer yes they shouldn't get a second date. LOL!

XoXoX,
BB
www.BobbiBillard.com

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Wabbits!!!

Woohoo! My site got reviewed by Rabbits Reviews and they seemed to really like it! Check out what they said... http://www.rabbitsreviews.com/s1644/Bobbi-Billard.html

XoXoX,
Bobbi Billard
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Saturday, August 27, 2005

I Cook Naked!

Hey everyone! Here's the latest and greatest for today. I have had a problem with ants recently. Usually, I just buy those ant traps which have something inside that attracts the pesky ants and then they take the poison back to the queen and it kills all of them. Those have always worked well for me in the past. I tried having an exterminator come out for a while. Unfortunately, like clockwork, about 2 days before the exterminator was due for his next visit, the ants would magically reappear again. It's like they would come to my house and put something that would kill them for exactly a month's time and then as soon as whatever that was ran out, I'd be forced to call them again and fork over another $50 or whatever it cost. It was like a viscious cycle. And I've tried spraying them myself but I hate Raid with a passion! Last time I sprayed Raid, all of my food, water, everything tasted like it and I couldn't get that damn taste out of my mouth for days. So I started using the ant traps and it seemed like a more permanent and less expensive solution to the problem. The only drawback was that they aren't very attractive so I have to try and hide them. But even though they don't really add to my decor, they got rid of my ants completely so I was willing to overlook the fact that they are a bit of an eyesore. I haven't really had a problem since I started using the traps except for once when I think they got old and ran out of the poison that was inside. And if I remember correctly it took years for that to happen. So for under $10 I thought I had come up with the perfect remedy to keep ants out of my house. I wasn't locked in to monthly exterminator visits and payments and I didn't have to smell and taste even the supposedly nicer smelling "Country Fresh" ant killer.

I don't know what the deal is lately though. Those traps stopped working for me. So I went out and bought new ones again thinking that they had just ran out of poison again but that didn't do the trick either. I think the bitch next door that I've told you guys about during my camshows is pulling a Pacific Heights over there. I would not be surprised! For those of you that haven't seen this movie, you should. It is one of my favorites because back in the day when I had roommates, I always had the roommates from hell. If you can relate, I highly recommend checking this flick out. I'll fill you in without ruining anything. Pacific Heights is about a couple that rents out part of their house that they made into a seperate apartment to a man who soon becomes the tennant from hell. He starts breeding cockroaches and all sorts of stuff in there and it becomes a total nightmare for them. I've joked around about doing something similar to get the bitch next door to want to move away. LOL! Now it seems that maybe she has seen this movie too and is breeding ant trap resistant ants over there. Stranger things have happened and I would not put it past her!

I have my cam show tonite so I'm all excited! I have to start getting ready soon. I just wanted to catch up with my diary while I had a chance. I need to go back to the tanning salon again so I'm nice and dark for my show.

I made Belgian waffles this morning. If I do say so myself, I'm a darn good cook! I used this new Hawaiian Style Macadamia Nut Pancake & Waffle Mix that I picked up at the store last night. It turned out very yummy! I love cooking every once in a while. I just hate cleaning up afterwards. Especially getting the gunk off the side of the waffle iron. I was doing so good and wouldn't you know it the last one I made had to overflow out and onto the sides. What a mess!

Anyway, I wore the new naked girl apron that mysteriously arrived recently. Did you send that to me Vee? I remember at one of my camshows, my friend Sarah (the cool Australian girl that runs the Bobbi's World yahoo group and helps me with a lot of stuff on my website) was talking about some apron that I'd never heard about or seen before and she was raving about it and said, "Oh you have to see them! They are totally cool! You'd love them!" or something like that. I remember telling her that I've seen those cheesy long tourist t-shirts that have a cartoon body on them so when you wear it, it's supposed to look like that's your body. There's one for guys which has some muscle dude's body on it and then the one for chicks has some curvaceous hourglass body in a bikini. My friend Girlie and I each bought one of these as a joke years ago at Lake Havasu. We were daring each other to wear them out in public and laughing about wearing them during a photoshoot together. We never did get to do that shoot. Oh well! I'm going to call her and remind her about that.

So I started thinking back and trying to figure out who the hell sent me that, I remembered that Vee messaged me sometime after that show and said to watch for something from Amazon.com (I think). I think he said that he had gotten me something off of my Wish List. So anyway, I still hadn't received anything from there, but then maybe a week later I got a mysterious package on my doorstep. So I open it up and inside were two aprons which I'm assuming were the ones that Sarah was talking about. They appear to be from Italy. Woohoo! I love Italian stuff! One has tomato slices and brussel sprouts (or are they lettuce leafs?) strategically blocking her private areas and the other has a man's hands covering up the nakedness. I tried them on and they look rockin' on me! I just don't know who to thank for sending them which kind of sucks. There was nothing else inside the package to indicate who they were from and it has slipped my mind until now to say something. I'm definitely not trying to be rude or unappreciative so excuse me for not saying anything sooner. So if the mystery person who sent me the aprons is reading this, please feel free to make yourself known. And THANK YOU! :)

Not even fifteen minutes after writing this I went in the kitchen to try and clean up the mess that I made while cooking breakfast and there is already a conga line of ants trying to go after a piece of waffle that was in the sink. So I've had it! I sprayed some Raid because I'm fed up with the ants not responding to these traps that I set up. I thought I might be safe since my sense of smell is all messed up because of my allergies. I was right about that, however, I can still taste it. Damnit! I guess the birthday cake tonite will be tasting a bit like "Country Fresh" Raid! Grrrr....

That's it for now. Anything else I have to add will have to wait until my show tonite. And after that I will have to split to go to my friends' birthday parties so unfortunately I will not be able to stay afterward and chat like I usually do.

XoXoX,
BB
www.BobbiBillard.com

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Prego! It's In There!!

Good morning! I got up around 8ish this morning. I was going to go to do a spin class and then go for a private pilates lesson but unfortunately, my calves are so sore that even walking hurts. So I called my instructor and told her that I wasn't going to be able to make it today. Luckily, she was cool about it and understood. I just hope I don't get charged as if I had gone anyway because those private pilates lessons are expensive!

Yesterday I went to my mom's house because she was having problems with her computer. Today I am going back with a new hard drive and a copy of Windows 2000. She was using Windows ME before so we have to do something about that! Windows ME sucks ass! I was going off when I found out she had bought a computer with that operating system. I was like, "MOM! Take it back!" LOL!

Oh, I don't think I ever told you guys... or maybe I did, I can't remember. My sister is Prego! That's slang that I invented to use instead of the word pregnant. You have to admit, that's pretty funny and clever. It's the perfect code word. Prego is a brand of spaghetti sauce. And their motto is "It's In There!" LOL! Anyway, I'm going to be an auntie. Crazyness! Oh well... at least that means that my mom won't be bugging me to procreate. And she already has her "grand-dog" anyway. *Giggle!*

Anyway, I finally got those pictures from that photographer that was holding them back. And I think I figured out why he didn't want to give them to me. And it's funny because somebody suggested that what probably happened was that he had accidentally fucked up a bunch of the pics and was too embarrassed to send them to me. The photographer's response? "I never fuck up my work... NEVER"! Famous last words! I got the pics and half of them are so dark that they are worthless. If that was why he was trying to blow me off, he should have just said, "Hey Bobbi, I'm sorry the pictures didn't come out well." Everything would be have been good then. I would have been disappointed, of course, but I would have respected the honesty a bit more and it sure would have beat me having to ride his ass for months and months while he blew me off repeatedly. Now I acquired an enemy out of this whole situation. I mean not from where I stand because I don't have the time nor the energy to hate people. But this guy hates me now and is talking crap about me to people that I know. I just think that this was a really fucked up situation and I am very disappointed that it had to come to this. And I'm completely baffled as to why he is going around talking shit about me when he has to know deep down where he lives that I was just frustrated with getting the runaround and just wanted to get my pics from him. Anyway, live and learn. I learned a valuable lesson. No matter how much experience I have in this business, I can still make mistakes and run across problems. I'm definitely not bulletproof. It would be wise for me to tighten things up even more with my rules regarding contracts. I need to have in depth discussions with photographers before a shoot takes place. This will help to prevent a situation like this from taking place again. I think from now on I'm going to shoot solely with Dean Capture, and people that I have worked with in the past already, and maybe a few others that I've been wanting to work with for a long time. I may do the occasional trade but all of the details regarding the shoot will need to be put forth in writing prior to us working together. And the rule is that I am not leaving until you burn me a cd on the spot unless I've worked with you before and I already know that your word is good.

XoXoX,
BB
www.BobbiBillard.com

Monday, August 15, 2005

Gucci is sick... AGAIN!

I just got back from San Diego. Gucci woke me up early. He was puking at 5 am. I think he had too many of those Greenies treats and it made him sick. I am watching him closely. He didn't eat all weekend but I gave him some Nutri Cal (which is a high calorie food that comes out of a toothpaste tube) and he licked it up. I may take him into the vet later on if he hasn't eaten any of his hard food by this evening.

I'm going to try and catch up with my posts on the forum. If I miss anything that you would like a response to, please bump it again so that I see it.

Thanks,
BB

Friday, August 5, 2005

Work Mode!!

I've been in work mode big time lately! I just can't seem to pry myself away from the computer. It's not really a bad thing. I finally have access to the right people that can help me implement all of the ideas that I have had for so long. All of this is fun and exciting for me!

I thought about this just last night while I was talking on instant messenger to a friend of mine that works as a webmaster. We were both kind of shooting the shit about how we have no life because we spend so much time working on the computer and our sites and I came to a realization about something. In the past, I've factored in all the hours that I spend on my site each day and calculated how much money that would equal out to per hour. It really doesn't seem like that good of a deal after all when you look at all the time and money that I spend to do all of this (meaning my website, the photoshoots, the camshows, etc. It's a full time job and a half!). But you know what? I wouldn't want to be working doing anything else! I actually love what I do. It's a challenge... a constant struggle. There is so much that I don't understand but I learn more and more every day. I enjoy it! When I am out and about... it's hard for me to get my mind off all the work that I have sitting and waiting for me at home. And I actually miss being online and not working. I must be wacked! LOL!

Anyway, I thought I would clue you in with what I am up to. I pretty much finished with my auto linking / friends page but I'm still adding links here and there. I am setting up a free fan forum later today. Or at least I thought I was... my "help" is MIA. Anyway, I'd appreciate it if you all registered. And we are very close to putting the finishing touches on the Members Area. Sarah is predicting that everything should be done by Wednesday. I can't wait! :) Now, I just have to email all of my connections to let them know about the official grand opening of my brand new website redesign.

I have to find a new personal assistant because my current one is too busy with her other jobs and projects now. I knew this would eventually happen, but it really sucks! I've never had to interview anyone before. I'm scared. So many of my friends that own business bitch about how hard it is to find good help these days. I was originally introduced to my assistant, LoriDawn, by a friend of mine who thought she would be a good match for me. He knew I was looking for someone to help me out and he had hired her in the past to work for him. It turned out that his hunch was right. She ended up becoming an employee for over 3 years now. Like I said, I always wondered what I would do if she ever had to quit. Well... I think I am going to be alright. I have my eye on this 21 year old Brazilian girl who is looking for work. We shall see what happens. For the time being, I still have access to my assistant's sister, Lisa, who I've hired in the past to do professional organization work for me. In fact, she is here today. Now I can finally handle all of my fan mail that has been stacking up. I'd start hiring her instead but she lives in Northern California so it makes things a bit tough. Anyway, everything is getting done and it feels good.

Gucci is at the groomers and when he gets back, he will have a new playmate. Lisa brought her adorable little teacup chihuahua down here with her. I wonder what Gucci will think of that. I guess we shall see...

Next on the to-do list I would like to add my snail mail address to my contact me form page and edit it so that if someone doesn't have a valid email address to reply to, it will give them an error message. I need to repurchase and add a new Mailing List program for my server so that I can start doing my mailing list again. I also need to make some changes on my friends page signup form to make it easier for people to add me to their own friends pages.

This weekend I will be shooting pictures for a billboard that will be appearing in a movie starring Mo'Nique. It should be fun and I promise to take lots of behind the scenes photos for you guys. I'm having a lot of fun taking behind the scenes pics for my website. I'll have to take some pictures of Gucci, who just got back from the groomers wearing a camo bandana, playing with Tia. These guys are too cute!

XoXoX,
Bobbi Billard
http://www.BobbiBillard.com

Monday, July 25, 2005

It's deader than a doornail... come join me!

Come and play with my friends and I @ SissyFight.com!

SissyFight is a game that multiple players can play at the same time while chatting. It takes place in a playground type setting. It's fun... plus we can talk to each other at the same time! So if you ever wanted to talk to me more, now is your chance...

I'll be there under the name "BobbiBillard". Anybody else that comes in there with an imposter Bobbi name is not me. Example: "bobbibillard" is not me!

I really hope to see you there! :)

Please make sure you read my FAQ section on my profile before coming to play with me. If I get a bunch of people bugging me about AIM again, then I am outta' there!

XoXoX,
Bobbi Billard
www.BobbiBillard.com

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Rumors of my death have been greatly exaggerated... but RIP Chloe Jones!

Hi all,

I had a second between approving all of my friend requests and working on my brand new automatic linking program to sit down and write for a few.

I've kind of been giving my myspace a break these days to get everything working properly with my brand new site redesign. Somebody really needs to invent a program to make it easier to approve pages and pages of friend requests a little faster. I know that if I don't log in there often, it can pile up quick. I'd sign up to be beta tester of a program like that in a heartbeat!

First off, my allergies are still jacked up. Every day I wake up sneezing my head off. I take Zyrtec for it but I'm still going thru boxes of Kleenex like no tomorrow. See... I always knew I should have bought stock in Kleenex. LOL!

On myspace the other day, I learned that some clever donkey with way too much time on their hands had come up with the brilliant idea of spreading around a bulletin for people to sign because I had supposedly died. I hate to break it to whoever concocted this warped plan, but the only Tombstone around here is in my freezer. So of course, I had to nip that whole rumor in the bud. I find it to be pretty lame that someone would do that but at the same time, I was touched that some people might actually give a flying ribbit if I croaked. Still I find it very odd to be reading my own obituary online. Here's the bulletin that was being passed around on myspace:

Attention Myspace Community-

We are sorry to inform you that Bobbi Billard, a true myspace celebrity has passed. Though she is no longer an active myspace member she is still with us in spirit. Bobbi Billard changed so many lives and helped the myspace community grow and flourish. Please show you respect for this myspace veteran by signing your name below.
RIP Bobbi Billard

1)Mike
2)Lisa
3)JIm (we will always love you)
4) *Kaite* she will always be remembered
5)JAKE
6)Chris
7)Liz, , I didnt know you but i am still sorry your gone
8) Ashley <3>

Which brings me to another matter. Someone posted a comment to me on myspace after I posted the bulletin in my blog to set the record straight. I hadn't heard, but a model named Chloe Jones really did die last month. I remember her from way back in the day of when I first saw her layout in a Playboy Newsstand Special. I remember thinking, "Wow! She is so beautiful!" Then I'd see pictures of her from time to time online. I guess she ended up going the Penthouse route and then eventually, she got involved in porn. It kind of surprised me, as it always does when I see beautiful women getting involved in all that. It's not that I'm against porn, nor do I judge people, but I would think that a woman as beautiful as that would be able to make enough money doing more mainstream modeling. Yeah, supposedly there can be even more money in porn. I guess to me, as long as my bills were getting paid, I'd be happy with that. Even if my bills weren't getting paid, I'd get a job somewhere, anywhere, and scale down a bit to make ends meet. The thought of making money by having to sleep with the likes of most of the guys that I've seen in those movies makes me sick. To borrow a quote off one of my favorite makeup artists, it just couldn't get dark enough, you know what I mean? And then I've always said that the extra money wouldn't cover the counseling that I would need to live with myself after that. That's just me though. To each his own. I'm not a judgemental person. If you really are a nympho (not just playing one on tv) and you don't have a problem with that line of work, by all means, knock yourself out. It's legal. Why not get paid to do what you love? And who am I to judge? After all, Jesus hung out with prostitutes. A lot of judgemental people conveniently forget that little tidbit of information when casting aspersions on others.

I know first hand how rough it must be to work in that profession. Not because I have ever been one, but because people have assumed that I was one (She has blonde hair and big boobs and she's young and drives a really nice car... Oh! Must be a pornstar! Either that or she has a Sugar Daddy!). A lot of people look down on that line of work. I got stereotyped as a porn star in the little yuppieville community that I live in when I didn't even get to earn the reputation. I can't imagine what it would be like if I really were one. It just seems as if that would be a tough road to hoe (no pun intended!). I feel really bad that those girls get judged without being given a chance. It's not as if most of them haven't been through enough in their lives to even get them to that point to begin with.

That is why I've always liked Jenna Jameson. I think that she's beautiful and I find her to be extremely sexy. Everything about her oozes sex appeal... from her facial expressions... to her manerisms. Believe it or not, that's a talent! If I were a guy, I'd definitely want to pork her at least once. LOL! Plus, she's well spoken and a business woman. I get the feeling that she really does enjoy her work... it's not all just an act that she puts on in some drug enduced stupor. And it's no wonder to me that she is one of the only women to ever make it in the mainstream world after chosing that line of work. I read her book "How To Make Love Like A Porn Star" and it was really good! It wasn't an instruction manual (Damnit! I'd take lessons from her any day!)... it was a "cautionary tale". I can't believe how many of the same people that we crossed paths with in our lives. I couldn't help but think about how easily I could have gone down that same path. I am thankful that I chose the one that I did. However, I wouldn't mind waking up every day in that gorgeous house that she lives in. Does Jenna want to be my Sugar Momma? Just kiddin'!!!

So anyway, back to Chloe. I started looking for more info... of course I am curious. I wanted to know how she died? She was only 29 years old. What I ended up finding thru a search on yahoo pissed me off enough for me to inspire me to write about it. I came across a board with people posting all sorts of stuff that isn't even worth repeating. I don't care what the hell she did for a living. The girl died. Show some fucking respect! This is why I hate the keyboard warrior wannabe, anonymous assholes that talk shit because they think they are so big and bad sitting behind the safety of their computer screens. I wish the internet wasn't so anonymous sometimes. I mean hell, I put a face, with the name, with the writing... and I was brought up with manners as a child. What a concept!

RIP Chloe Jones!



And... fuck all the haters!

Back to Jenna again, she has put up a fund for Chloe's daughter and twin sons over at:

http://www.chloeaid.com

Did I mention that I loved that girl? LOL!

XoXoX,
Bobbi Billard
http://www.BobbiBillard.com

Friday, July 15, 2005

BB Video!

This is one of the new videos that I've been working on editing. That's why I am a bit behind on the comments and stuff. I'm trying to catch up though.




Love you guys! :)

Mwaa!

XoXoX,
BB
www.BobbiBillard.com

Friday, July 8, 2005

Fresh New Look @ BobbiBillard.com

Well... my brand new site design is finally up and running. I'm so excited! :) Make sure that you stop by and see the fresh new look over @ www.BobbiBillard.com!

http://www.BobbiBillard.com

I really hope that you like it! :)

I'll be in touch soon to let you know about a few new things that will be happening...

For starters, I am adding a new automatic Link Program. You will be able to add your link to my site automatically and exchange traffic with me. Also, I will be adding a mailing list so that you can receive FREE hot pics of me straight to your inbox. I have to start from scratch since I lost all of the email addresses when my old hosting company deleted my server, so make sure that you sign up again if you were a member before. And I'll be emailing you to let you know when the new redesign goes live in the Members Area. It should be any day now. Expect an email from me soon. Talk to you later! :)

XoXoX,
Bobbi B.
http://www.BobbiBillard.com

Thursday, June 30, 2005

For the ladies (& metro-sexual guys too)... BB's Beauty Secrets :)

I was recently asked what my beauty secrets are by one of my friends here on MySpace. I thought I would share them here with you all.

Anybody that knows me, knows that I am the "Queen of Stuff". My friends all trip out on all the beauty products that I have acquired over the years. I could literally open up a beauty supply store with all the stuff that I have in my bathroom.

I can save you the hassle of wasting your money on worthless products because I've tried a zillion things over the years. I've even added links to my favorite products that REALLY WORK! Here are my tips for taking care of yourself and keeping a youthful look for as long as possible...

I never tan my face. I use sunscreen AND always put a towel over my face when I am in the tanning bed. I swear by Mystic Tan (www.MysticTan.com for a location near you) the day before photoshoots and appearances. I try to limit my tanning to once or twice a week.

I wear sunscreen on my face (SPF 35) every day. I like Vanicream ($11.00) which is free of dyes, fragrance & masking fragrance, parabens, lanolin, & formaldehyde.

I only wear makeup if I am going out at night or when I am doing a photoshoot. Never ever during the day. I feel that this gives your skin a break from foundations and powders which can clog your skin.

I drink lots of water. I recommend my favorites, Penta or VOSS. I mix one packet of Borba Skin Balance with 16 oz. of cold water twice a day. One packet of the Replenishing - Lychee for Dry/Dehydrated Skin ($100) in the morning & one packet of the Age Defying - Acai ($100) at night.

I try to get lots of "beauty sleep" whenever possible.

I swear by the Skin and Total Body Nutritional Supplements from N.V. Perricone ($120 for a one month supply). They are expensive but worth every penny.

These are the beauty products that I recommend:


Eye Cream:

Fresh - Lotus Eye Gel ($45) in the morning.
Fresh - Eye Balm Repair and Restore ($65) at night.

Lips:

Clinique - All About Lips ($20)

Skin:

Philosophy Purity One-Step Facial Cleanser ($20 or $32 depending on size)
Peter Thomas Roth - Botanical Buffing Beads ($30)
Peter Thomas Roth - Glycolic Acid Clarifying Tonic ($30)
DDF Ultra-Lite Oil-Free Moisturizing Dew ($31)
Fresh - Rose Marigold Tonic Water ($30)

Anti Aging Treatment:

Skin Medica - TNS Recovery Complex ($123.50)
Another expensive product but this stuff is amazing! It is the first skin care product in the world to contain naturally found proteins, amino acids, and antioxidants that our bodies use to help stimulate the skin to repair itself when damaged by the sun. Twice daily application improves the appearance of the skin, makes fine lines appear less visible, and gives the skin a healthier look.


Special Treatments:

Peter Thomas Roth - Oxygen Detoxifying Masque ($50) Once a week.

And to think that some people think that being a model isn't tough work!

Monday, June 27, 2005

How do we match up?

I saw this on someone's blog so I thought I would find something similar for my sign. So what do you think? How well would I (wild & crazy Sagittarius girl) match up with you?


Aries
This combination works well, provided the Aries partner can adjust to the Sagittarian's easy-going attitude to life. At times, this couple may seem to be more like a couple of friends than a pair of lovers. However, provided Sagittarius feels sufficiently committed to the relationship, the prospects are good.

Taurus
If this relationship works, it is more because of the differences between the two partners than because of their similarities. The solidity of Taurus will contrast sharply with the slightly playful approach of Sagittarius. Problems may arise if Sagittarius becomes bored and needs more freedom than is possible with Taurus.

Gemini
This can be a very active partnership: both Sagittarius and Gemini are dynamic people, who are constantly "on the go". At times, the relationship may appear to lack depth. It is important that they resolve any difficulties as soon as they crop up, rather than leaving them to get worse.

Cancer
This relationship can work, but it may require a little more determination than some other combinations. The Sagittarian is a little too flighty for Cancer, who could become very insecure. The Cancerian, on the other hand, may respond to this by becoming even more clingy.

Leo
In some ways, these two are quite similar. They are both very extrovert, and will have a great deal of fun together. The Leo partner may find the Sagittarian a little unreliable, however: he will be very committed himself, and will want to feel that his opposite number feels the same way.

Virgo
If this combination works it is probably because of the differences between the two partners, rather than their similarities. The Sagittarian is much more outward-going, and may seem a little wayward to the Virgoan. Virgo must try hard to understand his partner's need for freedom, since constant criticisms will only drive the Sagittarian away.

Libra
This is a good combination. They are both easy-going, and should be positive enough to rise above any disagreements. They are both the kind of people who enjoy the good things in life, and do not take themselves too seriously. They must be careful not to waste money, however, since both have an extravagant streak.

Scorpio
Sagittarians are not really serious enough for Scorpios. They can form a good balance to Scorpios' intensity, but this may not be appreciated, especially if the Sagittarian partner seems to be less than totally committed to the relationship. The Scorpion may also be a little too emotional at times.

Sagittarius
Like all relationships between people with the same Sun-sign, this combination will either work very well, or not at all. Whatever happens romantically, however, these two are likely to have enough in common to be good friends. Dangers may arise if they are not careful with money; but, provided at least one partner is sensible in this area, and the other is not too extravagant, there should not be any serious problems.

Capricorn
If this works - and it certainly can - it will be an attraction of opposites. The Capricorn partner will be much more down-to-earth and negative than the Sagittarian: this will give some much-needed stability to the Sagittarian, while, at the same time, giving the Capricornian partner some inspiration. The physical aspect to this relationship is usually very good.

Aquarius
This combination will work, provided both partners have the same degree of commitment. Problems will arise if the Sagittarian's need for freedom is too great. Despite his flighty nature, the Sagittarian is warm-hearted, and may feel that the Aquarian is a little too distant at times. A great deal will depend upon other astrological factors in these people's charts.

Pisces
This can be a workable combination, although there are important differences between the two sides. The Sagittarian will be attracted to Pisces' romantic nature, but may be a little too brash for his sensitive disposition. He will also have to become more dependable than usual. Pisceans can be very insecure, and need a lot of reassuring. The Piscean, on the other hand, must try not to be too clingy.


How do you attract a Sagittarius woman?
Although Sagittarian women are generally very capable and independent, they appreciate some chivalry from their male friends. Open doors for her and buy her flowers, unless she specifically objects to this. Don't let her practical manner fool you into thinking that she is not romantic.

Sagittarians are not particularly impressed by social status. Because Sagittarian woman are so good in business, it is quite possible that she will be earning more money than you.

After marriage, they can become surprisingly bossy. They know that they have good judgement of financial matters, and may well want to run the household finances. They can be trusted to make intelligent decisions.

Monday, June 20, 2005

My Friend's New Movie...

Hey there,

I just wanted to let you know that my friend Steven Bernheim made a movie and it just got a great review on AintItCoolNews.com.

Click here to check it out...


If the movie seems interesting, drop an email to information@chaos-themovie.com. The movie will be out in theaters before the end of the year.

XoXoX,
Bobbi B.
www.BobbiBillard.com
groups.yahoo.com/group/BobbiBillard

Thursday, June 16, 2005

No Italian Sausage For Me! :(

I left early so don't bother going to see the shows because you won't see me there. They were trying to get me to wrestle even though that wasn't the agreement that we had beforehand. And then while I was valeting, I ended up getting hurt in a match that went wrong. Rather than risk my neck (literally) I decided that it was in my best interest to come home and see my doctor. I will schedule a show just as soon as I am caught up with everything.

By the way, I am blonde again. I dyed my hair back to blonde because I heard that Italians love blondes. I found out first hand *giggle*! All I kept hearing down there was, "Bobbi Bee-lard! Bella! Bella!". LOL! :)

Here's one of my last brunette pics. I didn't have a chance to take that many with my brown hair. I will definitely miss it! I shot this with the talented model and photographer Lisa Boyle.



XoXoX,
Bobbi B.
www.BobbiBillard.com
groups.yahoo.com/group/BobbiBillard

Thursday, June 2, 2005

BB 'n Italy! Pass the Italian Sausage Muthafuckas! ;)

Howdy Stranger, :)

If you haven't already heard during my camshows, I've been letting everyone know that I will be away most of June for a BIG gig over in Italy. I got hired as a valet by Nu Wrestling, which is a TV show over there. If you are in Europe, or if you feel like taking a vacation and meeting me in the process (woohoo! you never know!), then this is my very next live appearance. For more info, please visit:

NuWrestling.com

And don't ask me what the hell it says there! LOL! I don't speak Italian, but I downloaded a few "Learn Italian Quickie 101" tapes online so at least I can ask where the bathroom is. Hehehe! If I like it out there and they like me, I just might very well move there. Who knows? I'm getting pretty friggin' sick of Cali!

If you need translation assistance, please visit:

AltaVista's Babelfish Translator

I know I did, but I am still a little bit confused. Your guess is as good as mine!

Anyway, I really hope to see you there! And if you do go, bring signs, and yell your head off when I come out... PLEASE! :) I want to knock these people dead when I'm out there so that they hire me back AGAIN and AGAIN! From what I hear, this will be a pretty good gig. I will also be selling BB merchandise at the shows, so if you want any of that good stuff from me, then here's your chance! :)

So take care and I will miss you when I am gone. Be good! And... see you when I get back. I am sure that I will have lots of interesting stories for you. :)

XoXoX,
Bobbi B.
www.BobbiBillard.com
groups.yahoo.com/BobbiBillard

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Brunette Bobbi In the NEW Kottonmouth Kings Video...

I told you guys a while back that I shot a video for Kottonmouth Kings. Their new song is called "King Klick" and I think it's a pretty bad ass! The video is now available for your viewing pleasure so go check it out! And no, I'm not the blonde girl on the bed. You can catch several glimpses of me in the video but remember, I changed my hair color. You can see me a bit in the very beginning (it's kind of choppy... blink and you might miss me) bumping and grinding with a chick, and there are a few shots of me in my dollar sign bikini, there's a quick face shot of DJ Bobby B (Cool name eh?) and I, and then later in the video you can catch a quick shot of me pawing on him while swinging on a hammock.


Click Here To See Me In the Kottonmouth Kings "King Klick" Video!

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Hunting & Pecking

I'm having a rough day. For starters, I didn't get much sleep. I was trying to write back to everyone that emailed me about my bulletin on MySpace (which was a carbon copy of what was wrote on livejournal). I'm amazed at how many people took the time to email and show their support. Actually, I'm amazed at how many people took time out of their busy days to read that rather lengthy piece that I wrote. Hahaha! MySpace.com is one of my favorite sites! I can't tell you how many cool people I have met thru there. And it appears as if a lot of people have dealt with tons of adversity in your lives. I heard from a several paraplegics, a girl that battled bone cancer TWICE, a guy that blew out his hip in a motorcycle accident and his muscle had to reattach to his leg so every time he walks it feels like it is ripping, etc. I was touched and moved by their stories. It made all of my troubles seem so small in comparison.

So anyway, stupid, tired me in my haste to get ready to go to the gym, slammed my right pointer finger in the door and broke my nail off way down low. It's crazy how much blood came out. It even got on my white shoes... DAMN IT! So forgive me people but during my cam show tonite, if my audio is not working over at ACH (I am crossing my fingers that it will) during my cam show tonite, then I won't be able to type there. It was a struggle to type this and hunt and peck is not my style! I will, as always I will have sound on my CamZ show! :)

And then if that wasn't bad enough, I burned the roof of my mouth so badly the other day in my rush to eat because I was starving. Now I can barely eat anything because it hurts so much! Grrr... Oh well! My workout was great! Wait! Actually, it wasn't all that fabulous either! I kicked some ass on the stairmaster (Level 13 woohoo!) and then got an asthma attack and had to take it easy on the treadmill.

Oh well! Guess it's just one of those days...

Shortly after I posted this, I booked a 2 day gig with MuscleTech. Yay! Guess it's not such a bad day after all! :) Call time is 9 am and of course, it is up in LA, so I definitely need to get my beauty sleep tonite.

XoXoX,
Bobbi B.
http://www.BobbiBillard.com

Monday, April 25, 2005

My WWE "Release" Info...

I've been very busy with a lot of stuff so I'm sorry that I haven't had enough time to keep up with my journal as much as I should. I thought that I would give you an update as to what I've been up to as well as address some things that have been mentioned in some of the wrestling sites, on my official website (www.BobbiBillard.com), my yahoo group, and on MySpace.com.


First off, regarding the whole WWE (World Wrestling Entertainment) thing. I appreciate the many many responses that I have gotten regarding the whole supposedly getting "released" from WWE again that some of the wrestling sites have been reporting. A lot of you have expressed to me that you really would have liked to have seen me up on television but sometimes that is just not the way the cookie crumbles. I must say that I was extremely surprised when a few days ago, the wrestling news sites have been writing that I got released again.


Here's the story...


In case you haven't been following my career that long and haven't heard, I was hired to work for WWE back in late December 2003/early January of 2004 and had a serious neck injury that was so bad that I had to have a 2 level fusion surgery (C5/C6 - C6/C7). This surgery was performed by Dr. Youngblood (same doctor as Stone Cold, Lita, Edge, etc.) in San Antonio, Texas at the end of July 2004. It takes a long time to heal from something like that. For months, I had to wear a rather restrictive neck brace and was unable to drive or do anything but sit in my house and rely on friends and family to bring me food and supplies, and take me to doctors appointments and such.


And then there is the whole healing process that takes place. It puts you out of commission for quite a while. I keep getting offers to come and wrestle for other companies but you can't wrestle for at least a year after a 2 level fusion. And that's if I decide that I even want to wrestle again at that point. I couldn't work out until I was cleared by the doctor. I was scared to re-injure myself by trying to do too much too soon. So I took it SLOW. And to be perfectly honest, there was a long period of time where I was extremely depressed about this whole situation and didn't really feel like doing much of anything. Well, I am pleased to announce that I have FINALLY started working out with a really great trainer and trying to get my body back in fitness shape so that I can take on shoots and start booking modeling work again. But even shooting is hard now a days. The long hours involved take its toll on my body. My neck is just not the same. I thought that I was going to make a full recovery and get back to normal but as of right now, its been pretty tough. Certain poses are harder for me to hold because there isn't much strength in my neck. Plus my scar is ugly and pretty visible! It is keloid. Not all of the magazines airbrush you know, particularly the fitness ones! I'm hoping that it doesn't affect my chances of getting published again. And of course, my mobility is a bit limited so things like driving are a little different and have taken some time to get used to. It hurts when I do crunches and certain exercises. I have to be extremely careful when lifting even light weights in the gym. My neck hurts, especially in the mornings and at night, and particularly on days that I workout or do a photoshoot. My muscles on the left side from my neck down to behind my scapula are in knots constantly. And I still can't flex my bicep completely on my left side. It doesn't respond to my brain signals. Very strange! I'm not sure if this is because the muscle has atrophied, or if I have permanent nerve damage left over from the result of having to wait so long to get the surgery. My muscle strength (bicep and tricep) in my left arm is not what it was.


When I was down in Kentucky at OVW and got injured, the first doctors that I was sent to looked at my MRI and said, "Tasha, you will make a full recovery from your injury, however, Bobbi I'm not so sure about. Her neck is really messed up!". I knew this was the case because I was in so much pain! These were the same doctors that called WWE and asked what was going on because they were seeing so many injuries in such a short time span. Shortly thereafter, the head trainer, Rip Rogers, was fired. Bob Clark, who handled the injuries of WWE employees at that time (or independent contractors as they prefer to call us) referred me to this other doctor in Cincinnati. I did not really get a good vibe from him and I told this to Bob Clark. Not to mention it was a pretty far drive from Louisville to Cincinnati and driving was extremely hard for me when I was injured. However, they made me go to him anyway. This guy acted as if there was nothing wrong with me (which I just knew in my heart was not the case) and recommended that he administer cortisone injections in my neck. I did a set of 3 and then shortly after my third one I was released because it didn't fix me up one bit. The reason that I was given for my "release" was because I was hurt and since it was a neck injury, I would continue to re-injure myself if I were to keep wrestling. They said that they have seen it with their other stars and said that once your neck is injured, you're almost like damaged goods in their eyes. And I wasn't on TV yet, so to them it just wasn't worth it to invest in me any further. I was very disappointed but I understood. So at the end of April of 2004, I had a friend fly out and help me move all of my belongings back to California. I was under doctor's orders and I wasn't able to lift over 5 or 10 pounds so I was basically useless. Thank god that I had that help as nothing was offered to me.


I collected all of my medical records because I knew that I was going to be needing them once I got home, and that's when I found something to be a little strange. My MRI report said something like "Is she having these symptoms? Numbness and tingling in the fingers? If so, you should order these tests." I find it VERY strange that that doctor that WWE was so hell bent on me seeing did not even mention that to me, nor did he suggest that I have the Myleogram or Nerve Conduction Test as suggested by the radiologist in my MRI report. I have to wonder if that doctor is paid off or something but of course, I can't prove anything like that. I think that when you work for a company like WWE, the attitude is that you are supposed to be like a racehorse and just get back in there. Unfortunately, I could barely function because of the constant pain that I was in and I would have done further damage to my body had I decided to. Plus, I would have been putting anyone else that I got in the ring with in jeopardy if I had. So I made the right decision for ME to listen to go to the doctor. Besides, I was not medically released to train any further so even if I had wanted to, I wouldn't have been allowed to get back in the ring.


Anyone remember the incident a while back involving Bubba Ray Dudley? Apparently, Bubba had been suffering from a pinched nerve in his neck and dropped Lance Storm directly on his head, botched a scary spot with Triple H and a table, and gave himself a concussion, all in under a month's time. WWE was said to feel lucky that no one was further injured by the decision to put Bubba Ray back in the ring a bit prematurely from a pinched nerve injury. Let me remind you, I was under strict doctors orders not to wrestle so don't even give me that bullshit about working through my injury!!


So back in California, WWE sent me a contract that said that they wanted to pay me a lump sum of cash and that I would release them from any liability, etc. And also that both parties would agree that the story was that I left wrestling to "pursue my own interests". I sat there and thought, "I don't think that amount would even cover my neck surgery, if I in fact needed one. I can't sign this! No way!" so I didn't sign. And then my weekly checks stopped coming for almost a month or more I think. Were they trying to force me to sign because they thought that I needed the money? Well you guys picked the wrong girl then! THANK GOD wrestling was not my sole source of income... and while I did need the money to pay for the various expenses that I incurred while moving from Kentucky to California, I would have been ok anyway. I feel sorry for the people if they get into a similar situation and are depending on those weekly checks that they get. They would have no choice but to sign and get screwed in situations like this. That really sucks for those people!


Back at home dealing with my injury, I would sit on the computer and read all these bogus reports as to why they got rid of Latasha and I. I was supposedly skipping practice, wasn't taking to the training, faking an injury so that I could get out of wrestling practice, etc, etc. I was like, "Why would I want to sign this? In that contract, both parties are supposed to agree that I left wrestling to pursue other interests, which is a total lie (at least in my case it was)". And then there is/are some big mouth high school drama freak(s) working for WWE leaking all of this bogus information on wrestling tabloid websites stating information to the contrary. Tasha signed and they still reported that stuff about her. Way to uphold your end of the bargain there people! Then Dr. Tom came out with his column bashing me and I was like alright... that's it! Enough is enough! That Dr. Tom guy is an idiot! I barely even talked to him so he didn't even know me. And he didn't have enough common sense to know that most of the people down in Louisville that I went to school with knew that I had a good look and was a threat to get pulled up to TV quicker than them. And if WWE was smart... they would want women that have the ability to get a "reaction" out of people... positive or negative. If I could stir up OVW so much to have all those people all riled up about me, then just think of what I could have accomplished on the "boob tube" hahaha! Let alone the fact that I already have a huge fan base.


Let's face it, I wasn't hired because I am some fabulous wrestler. I mean, I did have a prior stint with W.O.W. (Women of Wrestling), I'd been training with Rey Mysterio's uncle (the original Rey Mysterio) in Tijuana, I'm athletic, I'm a hard worker, I'm intelligent, I had potential to learn, and I wanted to get to become a great wrestler and not just another "eye candy" bimbo that you guys are complaining about being stuck with watching these days on WWE. I'd say that you could compare me to a Trish. Her looks and fitness background got her in the door in the first place, but then she surprised everyone in the end. And now look at her! She's arguably one of the best in the women's division. But I can be honest with myself and honest with all of you, I wasn't hired because of my amazing wrestling ability. I was hired for my look. And people resented me for that.


Unfortunately, TV is about beautiful people. Wrestling is moving more in that direction. Not that that is what it is supposed to or should be about, but that's just the way it is now a days. Deal with it! The people at OVW knew the drill perfectly well down there. Those people knew that I would have gotten called up before them and they hated me for that. And they hated me because I drove a nice car. There was a lot of jealousy going on. Even the guys were in competition with the girls. I was told by a few people to BE CAREFUL. That people will hurt you ON PURPOSE! Pretty scary stuff if you ask me. Put yourself in my shoes. You know that everyone hates you and then you have to stress out about some hater bitch dropping you on your head ON PURPOSE to possibly paralyze you and put you out of commission? Then I'm sure they'd just be like, "Oops! Sorry about that! It was an accident!".


I saw it happen one day with my own eyes. I was watching practice one day and a girl (who will remain nameless) was in the ring with a new girl that looked like she could be her clone (but I think that the new girl was prettier and the other girl was feeling insecure). So this new girl was getting a try-out at OVW. They were in the ring together and if I remember correctly the veteran OVW kicked the new girl in the face or did something to try and injure her. I looked around and everyone was baffled (the trainer, the people standing around the ring, etc.). Even the veteran's own boyfriend was like, "What were you trying to do there?". I watched as she fumbled on her words trying to come up with some sort of excuse for her actions. I know perfectly well what she was trying to do. She was trying to pull rank on that girl. And she was worried that there was going to be another new pretty girl down at OVW competing for a job on TV. That's just the way it was there.


Anyway, I was told that I wasn't liked because of the reasons that I mentioned above. And it is also a well known fact that some of the people that go to school there, will embellish the truth and give information to certain people (*ahem Dr. Tom*) in exchange for perks or to make themselves look better and hopefully get pulled up to TV quicker. Dr. Tom's column about me proves my point. He bashed me because I drove a Hummer. That just proves right there that those people were jealous and pissed off that I was down there and successful (not from my wrestling paychecks, believe me, because I make more money modeling in one day than I did all week working for WWE. I gave all of that up, plus I wasn't able to be as involved as I am on my website, to go down there to train instead.). It's not my fault that I built a successful business and was getting paid more money from WWE than a lot of the people down there. And while they were eating bologna sandwiches and struggling to get by, I was an easy target. If Dr. Tom was smart... he would have got all that! But instead, he wasn't able to see the real picture. He listened to a bunch of cut throat people that would do ANYTHING, straight Machiavellian style to insure that I wouldn't take "their spot" on TV. If he had any sense, he would have considered the source and what their motivation could be. So hence his column in which he didn't have the balls to mention my name, but everyone knew who he was talking about. And now he's out of a job with WWE too. My fault? I don't know. But I do believe in karma.


So anyway, I decided to speak out because so many rumors and bullshit were being thrown my way and I wanted to set the record straight. That's when WWE decided to step up to the plate and send me to Dr. Youngblood. I don't think they really understood the reach that I have with my website, etc. but if they didn't... they do now. I have a lot of fans that were rooting for me to get up to TV. Fans that would be watching their programming now if I was on there. And that's why, once again, I am shocked that whatever loud mouth drama gossip queen that they have working for their company is reporting that I have been released again. I'm not about to let you guys start BS'ing about me again.


Let's set the record straight. I was released in mid April 2004. But after I told my story and got them to finally send me to a "real doctor", they paid for my neck surgery. Thank you for that! That was the least that they could have done for all that I went through. All that time that aholes on the wrestling sites were falsely reporting that I was faking my injury to get out of practice, etc. I have the neck scar to prove it... so now what? Now hopefully you can see who was telling the truth after all. And much to my surprise, I kept receiving my weekly checks from WWE. You think they were paying me all this time out of the goodness of their hearts? I highly doubt that! And no, I did not quietly get some secret deal with WWE to be on contract so I don't sue them. I have so far refused to sign any of the crap that they have presented me with except for the contract that I got hired with in the first place. They just kept sending checks... and I kept cashing them. So I haven't been released again people. They released me way back in April just like I said.


The only thing that happened that could remotely be considered a release was that I got a phone call from Johnny Ace and he said something along the lines of, "How are you doing? I want you to know that we are going to continue to pay you for another 3 months (WWE pays you for 3 months when you are released) and we know that you can't wrestle again but maybe there's a role for a bikini type diva or something so next time we are in LA, we'd like to meet with you."


So I thought, cool... they were just going to continue the checks for 3 more months and all would be good. I was appreciative of the fact that they were letting me know in advance. But then they sent me that contract again for me to sign stating that I was signing away my rights to sue them in exchange for the money. And I like how they are dangling that "job" carrot to try to get me to sign that. If they really wanted to give me a job with the company, why is it that they didn't just offer me something a while back. They had a Diva Search contest and some of those girls don't have to wrestle (which they said that they don't want me to do anyway because of my neck). Why wouldn't they just give me a job then since it really didn't matter who won or lost the whole thing? They pretty much hired every one of them anyway. Why is it a few days before you send me the "please don't sue me" contract that you are saying to meet up with you guys next time you are in LA? Weren't you guys just in LA for Wrestlemania?


Nobody from that company cared to ask how I was doing while I was recovering all this time. Don't think that I didn't notice that either. Yes, I got a few phone calls here and there but the tone of the calls always felt like "so are you going to sue us or what?" as they rushed me off the phone and didn't seem to be listening to my responses of how I was doing. I didn't detect any genuine concern from anybody but Tommy Dreamer. Then they have their OVW spies calling me up out of the blue to see how I'm doing *cough bullshit!*, acting like they had no idea that I got neck surgery. I got one of those calls very recently and forgive me if I'm wrong but his timing was just impeccable. PUHLEASE!! Those OVW drama queens know everything already. Who do you guys think you are kidding? I know! I went there! They try and pump me for information. It's laughable but I just play along like the dumb blonde that they obviously think that I am. I'm from L.A. people... HELLO! Do you not think that after all the practice that I've had living here that I can't tell genuine people from the fake ones?


So do me a favor people. Don't call me with the fake "how are you doing" crap! Especially the OVW spies! I'm onto you! I have been since day 1! If I'm wrong and your intentions were genuine, then I'm sorry for anyone's feelings that were hurt by these statements. But you coulda fooled me!!! It all seemed phonier than a 3 dollar bill! And I did notice the timing of all of these phone calls. I'm not as dumb as I may have looked to you.


But the question of the day is... why is WWE so worried about a lawsuit? Hmmm.... I wonder! And why did all these people that I spoke about suddenly get fired shortly after I told my story? Was it because I wasn't telling the truth all along? You decide!!


In my opinion, WWE is a lawsuit waiting to happen. There's a whole story on this that is worth a read.


http://www.pwtorch.com/artman/publish/printer_12336.shtml


Just look at the incidents reported lately with the Diva Search contestants being harassed by various WWE employees. It continues to happen and nothing gets done about it. In any other publicly traded company, people that act like this get fired. Ivory harassed me day in day out following me around the class every day calling me "whore", she went through her speech during one practice, "Girls like you two FUCK your way up to the top! I don't want you taking my spot, I don't you taking my spot, and I certainly don't want you taking my spot!" (as she pointed to all of us that were training), and then there was the day where she told Tasha and I in front of the class that "If you would work as hard in the wrestling ring as you obviously do in the bedroom... then maybe, just maybe you would get somewhere!". I can only imagine what it would have been like for me if I were to have made it up to TV. Amy Weber was teased about being a stripper because someone had stolen her photo from a Legs Avenue flyer and was using it to advertise their strip club, had a bloody mary poured on her while she slept on a plane, was slammed into the wall by another wrestler. Another Diva Search girl had some guy take a shit in her bag. And Sable sued them ages ago for similar type antics. When is it going to end? Will it really take another lawsuit for WWE to finally learn their lesson?


As for what I am up to now, I've been booking shoots again. My body is responding quickly to the workouts in addition to the new South Beach Diet meal delivery service that I am doing through nutrifitonline.com. A few weeks ago, I shot a music video for The Kottonmouth Kings. Their new song is awesome! I smell a hit here. It's called "King Klick". I can't wait to get my hands on a copy of their new album (which comes out 5/21) because I still have that damn song in my head. LOL! And I will let you all know when you can download the video and see yours truly with my NEW brunette hair. Oh yeah! That is big news too! I dyed my hair brown and I love it! Can you believe it? Last Wednesday, I just test shot for a major publication that I have to keep a secret right now but I am crossing my fingers on that one. And I had a shoot on Friday for Moto XXX (a motocross clothing company). I will be appearing on their upcoming site mxbeauties.com, saltytees.com, as well as on motoxxx.com.


Bye for now... I will let you know what I am up to as soon as I have more info for you.


XoXoX,

Bobbi B.



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